To those who have plans to do form 6:

It will be a battle of your mind. A war between the old self and new. The old self finds little or no meaning in this endless/pointless toil. The new man fights that there is a reason for this - character building, and that it glorifies your creator.
So, to satisfy your conscience, you direct your will to put effort in excelling in your studies. But the sleepless nights tire you, and your old sinful nature emerges again to lure you back to "saving the world" through computer games ( you can beat the Nazis in "Company of Heroes" or save the galaxy in "Starcraft" ) which give some temporary meaning.

Everyday is war.

Your will and desire clashes in the early hours of the day whether to attend school or not. Your will and conscience says that it is good for your future, while your desires scream for more rest on your bed, giving reasons that there is no meaning in educational success (after all, it is the high school dropouts that hire the degree holders, e.g. bill gates).

And as time passes on, you realize you have only 2 months to D-Day.

The world seems to give you the impression that all hope lies in that 4 papers. (Physics, Chemistry, Math and General Paper). Your culture/community identifies you by the As achieved. And maybe your parents think the same (thank God mine are not!).

Now, you wished you had studied more. You wished you had been a good and obedient child and had not spent those many hours on youtube and msn or hanging out at the mall.

And so, you cry out to God in desperation.

" Save me, O God,
for the waters have come up to my neck.

I sink in the miry depths,
where there is no foothold.
I have come into the deep waters;
the floods engulf me.

I am worn out calling for help;
my throat is parched.
My eyes fail,
looking for my God."

Well, this describes where I am now.
Humbled and broken... and really really really desperate.