I decided to write this, aft visiting a few people's blog (Euodia, Ming, Julian). 

"I sometimes feel, when I go to Church, I hold back because everyone around me is so strong. I feel like I'll be look down if I admit my hurts and saying that I'm in need of help after I have put on a mask to show a confident face just before stepping into the sanctuary." Julian Loh
www.tabulas.com/~fdcoiea

Well, I do relate to the above statement. I remember back in Dec 2005, when Ps Benaiah Naresh spoke his first words to me at the last night service of youth camp. He said that I was always fighting to look strong out there, but I need not to. Well, confession time. Life isn't very kind. Hurt has never been a stranger.

"Judson, does ever it matter to you if your friends do things without you?" Someone close to me 

I have to admit, yeah. Guys try to hide this. But even small things like this do matter. And they matter big at times. 

Have we all ever wondered if our pursuit of happiness and acceptance has at some point caused us to hurt one another? For example, in a a group of close friends, and someone in there decides to "elevate" his/her company. The rest feel a little betrayed. Or, when you love someone so much (specifically in bgr), and he or she doesn't return the same. This are small examples and if they hurt, how much more the bigger things we faced in life.

I just finished watching a 10-series from HBO, "Band of Brothers". The show is full of raw emotions and attempts to bring up the theme of comradeship. I think there is something we can learned from this novel/TV series. The strong bonding between soldiers to carry on through the war. And are we not soldiers?

"United we stand"

Yeah, I like that phrase Julian wrote that on his blog. I liked the entries Euodia (euodiaooi.blogspot.com) & Ming (www.tabulas.com/~cmy)  wrote on their blogs. We should continue to encourage one another to forgive and build ourselves up. This is the total opposite of self pity (I wrote bout it in the previous entry). When we realise we cannot do it on our own and when we help one another to achieve it through Christ, I believe we have become what the church was meant to be. Family.

"Forgiveness is freedom" 

Shadowfeet

A simple & beautiful song

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The other day, a topic was discussed in my class. Between money or your dreams (concerning future vocation), which would you choose? What do you think?

For me, I admit I'm torn in between two.

I did this piece for Yan-Y. She requested an artwork bout a month ago.

Everytime I think about those little girls at youth group (though not little anymore) and cameras, I can't help but be puzzled at their vanity. Taking pictures of themselves seem to amused them much. Anyway, they really are a fun bunch at the youth group. Bullying them is fun too. Haha.

Have you ever attempted to communicate something important or something just wonderful and ended up blowing everything 'cause you don't know how to say it?
Well, I do. Sometimes it's something so simple yet I find it so hard to communicate it, and worst, I may just complicate everything.

I need that communication gift. I really do, God.

It's frustrating when not understood. 

Currently listening to: Must Have Done Something Right - Relient K