Arhhh... i could not resist the temptation of creating a blog... well, this is the 1st entry...

I was thinking about the purpose of why were struggle to live in this rotten world, why we fight temptations, pressures form the enemy and why we work so hard serving God when all God has to do is snap is fingers and we will all rapture to heaven. Then I realise we were here on a mission, in a battle to fight and win as many souls before Christ returns. We are not here to enjoy music at church services or to just have fun. Not that these things are wrong. It is just not the focus, not the main thing. Many times I forget that, many times i don't feel the love to go out and share God's love, many times the passion for souls die out. The work of the youth group and church comes in and steals the very heart of God, which is not the work but the people. If we were to be worshippers and not just workers, then I think we will be able to grasp again the heart of God.

Lately, I almost finish reading a book, "Beyond believe to conviction". It talk about the problem/issue of why many teenagers fall into the hands of this world. Many times, we presume that the reason for all this is 'postmodernism' or many other things. So, I decided to look into it. Why do people with such a passion & love for God can fall later on? Why do these people forget their own passion? I realise that many times our relationship with God is not solid. We do not really know God, we do not really interact with God. We do not have an INTIMATE relationship with God. I also have been reading Songs of Solomon, the book which rarely anyone reads. Some people think its rather a 'mushy' book or an overdescriptive book. But this book has really taught me many things about Jesus (bridegroom) relationship with us, his bride. If we really have a real relationship with God and really get to know him, we will develop the fear of the Lord helping us fight temptations. Somewhere in proverbs, it says that ...trust him with your whole heart, lean not on your own understanding, ACKNOWLEDGE GOD in EVERYTHING we do and he will guide our paths (make it straight)... I've been thinking about this and realise that not only is a real/intimate relationship with God the key to a victorious life but that relationship has always been desired by God, that's why he created man and then send his son to die for us. If we were really to win this race, we really got to start an intimate relationship with him (Song of songs 1:1). I personally have been working on this but it isn't that easy.

Currently reading: Philip Yancey: Where is God when it hurts?

Well, it's over and I'm glad. Great job everyone. Well, I would like to thank the following people:

Ming-Y, great working with you. Thanks for putting up with me.

Backstage - The Most Important
Hannah, for coordinating the night's programme
Julian, for lighting
Hui Jen, for photo spot
Darren & Christopher, for sound
Rachel Khoo, for ushering
And all the other backstage members who made the night's programme run smoothly.

Props & Video
Uncle Philip Khoo & Uncle Felix
THANKS SO MUCH for working so hard to get the props and ambience for the night.

Production Team
Daniel Teoh, for vocals
Euodia, for coordinating dances & games/interactive
Sarah Khoo, for games/interactive & old pic. presentation
Ian, for all the behind the scene work... computer/multimedia/sound etc.
Eunice Lim, costumes & fashion show
Charlotte, costumes & fashion show

Special thanks to,
My dad, Pastor Lim Heok Cheow
Eunice Ooi
Francis Cheah
Ee Laine
....for helping out a lot and for the encouragement too.

And thanks to all the other cast members for participating and making the Family Nite a success.

Thank you.

Blessed to be a blessing

Called to be a calling, to call the world

Different to make a difference

I once read this "The reasonable man revolves around the world, the unreasonable man tries to make the world revolve around him... so any progress in this world depends on the unreasonable man".

Well, my life this past 1 and half weeks has been uPSIDE dOWN.

Strugling to break free when Jesus said he has made you free.

Fighting when the battle/victory is God's... fighting a battle that already has been won.

But still alive... Thank God

Currently listening to: Majesty, Delirious

I realised all the 'sins' of my past are haunting me now.

I used to be naughty in school... esp. in primary. Now, my former school mates are returning and reminding me of my past... so malu. A friend of mine reminded me that when I was std. 4, on the last day of school... I fought with a girl... some really fat girl who I got angry with. I think we were fighting over some power switch... coz the girls wanted to have the radio and the guys wanted to fix the game boy... something like that. All I can remember was that she punch me and I puch back then I grabed her radio and threw it on the floor... it broke I think. After that I kena rotan from the HEM teacher. Thank God it was the last day of school and they didn't call my parents. *phew*

The Invitation
Just yesterday, I received an invitation from a girl I can't even remember from my primary school to attend her birthday at Casuarina. I felt so embarased. People can remember me but I can't remember them. I was wondering how I'm going to wish the birthday girl when I can't even regconised her.

Btw, Sarah Khoo told me that I used to bully her (sarah) in primary school. I can't remember that either. I didn't even know she was from the same school. Well, still feel proud about the bullying part.

Now, I'm meeting most of my former school mates again. And everytime I meet one, they were will be like 'You used to do this' and 'You used to do that'. Haiya... my past so sad. Now regret. Summore I tell them my dad is a pastor. Haha... and they go 'Pastor's son can act like that ah?'...

Btw, my parents claimed that when I was 2 years old... I pulled a girls hair and kissed her... I'm like 'yeah rite'. But they insisted on it. Well, I was only two...innocent and naive...

So, the moral is you will reap what you sow.

Currently listening to: Pirates who don't do anything
Currently reading: Where is God when it hurts? by Philip Yancey